Tahniah :')
Selama ni saya percaya awak but you just lost it like that. Saya dah lama sebenarnya rasa awak selalu tipu saya... Tapi saya buat bodoh, saya tetap percaya awak. Why? Pshh. Sbb sayang. Sayang tapi bodoh. Percaya bulat2 like that.
Selama ni saya biar je walaupun saya mmg dapat rasa yang awak tipu saya. Tapi awak pandai gila berlakon. You really know how to psycho me up. You make it like it's my fault that i didn't trust you. Awak buat jugak kali ni. Utk buat saya rasa bersalah. But sorry, not this time. Sbb idk... maybe kali ni Allah tu nak tunjuk kan.. Saya memang ada bukti. Bukti yang saya tak mintak pun. It just came. Kebetulan like that.
And the funny thing is... you still nak tipu. Like whaaaat? Oh come on.. You just make yourself look so fcking stupid. Seriously.. Serious kelakar. How can you even think of that? Haha alahaii..
So I asked you where you were at and the same time, saya dapat bukti tu. Even before you answer me. Mmg exactly at the same time. So when I got your answer, you said you were at home, angkat barang like wtf man... Sumpah saya betul2 tak sangka awak sanggup tipu saya. Mula2 I tried to play it cool. I asked you "Awak tak tipu saya kann...?" And you were like cacing kepanasan already. "Ya Allah awak.. betullahh.. buat apa saya nak tipu awak.." Haha bodoh. It's just so fcking stupid. I can see that you're trying to make me look bad. Like it's my fault. Mmg dari dulu awak buat mcm tu. Suka psycho saya. You're like "Thanks awak sbb tuduh saya tipu awak" "Takpe la, terpulang awak nak percaya ke tidak.." LIKE WEHHH! Kau yang tipu, aku yang kena?! I kennot brain it la weh!
I just don't get it?! Kenapa nak tipu? Kenapa? KENAPA?!
Like gigih gila taknak mengaku. Asal ah? Sampai sanggup suruh sape2 amik gmbar 'barang' kat rumah when I asked you for the picture. Pastu suruh amik gmbar sendiri, mcm2 alasan bagi. Pffftttt. I already knew you were outside, lepak mamak. And you can tell me awak baru keluar pergi beli goreng pisang? Padahal tengah hujan? Wehhh kebangangan apakah ini?! Apa masalah awak taknak bagitahu saya? So what kalau awak kat luar? Kononnya takut la saya marah? Demam tapi keluar lepak. Pshh you know what? I don't fcking care! I just can't accept that you LIED to me.
Sumpah saya kecewa gila. Awak sendiri pernah cakap saya tak percaya awak, susah nak percaya awak. Mmg patut pun! Awak mmg tak boleh dipercayai. Tah2 sebelum ni tah apa lagi awak tipu saya tapi i just gave in.. percaya bulat2 mcm org bodoh. Eeeee sumpah sakit hati!
Mentang2 saya baik, awak amik kesempatan... Nice la nice.. Saya tak tahu dah nak cakap apa.
Paling bodoh is when you told me you want to TEST me. Test otak kau la wehh! Nak main2 dgn kepercayaan. Awak fikir apa huh? You're just using that as ALASAN! Don't give me that bullshit okay. Sampah! There's no way to test me like that. Awak tahu ke saya tahu before nak test saya tu? LOL. Kalau saya tak tahu, cemana nak tipu? Honestly, kalau saya takde bukti tu, saya akan percaya bodoh2 yg awak mmg kat rumah. Pergh... sumpah rasa bodoh. Thanks a lot :')
Sekarang ni I just don't know what to do... don't know what to feel.. Saya rasa kosong. Tak tahu nak fikir apa. Tak tahu nak buat apa.. Tak tahu kita mcm mana.. For your information, you just gave me a reason to walk away.. Im sorry.. I don't know. Dgn awak pun senyap, takde effort apa langsung. Awak rasa? Entahlah... You might think benda ni kecik but nope. Tipu is still tipu. Once dah start tipu, confirm lepas ni lagi banyak tipu. And benda kecik ni pun boleh tipu, tak mustahil awak boleh tipu benda lagi besar. Idk... Taknak fikir.. Saya kecewa sangat awak.. Saya sayang awak tapi awak sanggup buat mcm ni.. Entah laa.. You might think im emotional.. Tapi cuba letak diri awak kat tempat saya.. Kalau tu pun tak rasa apa, mmg awak takde perasaan.
Saya sumpah tak tahu right now how.. Nak balik mid sem ni pun takde hati dah. I was excited nak balik sbb nak jumpa awak.. Saya dah plan dah nak buat apa semua.. Last2 awak buat saya macam ni.. :') Takpe la.. Buat la apa awak nak buat lepas ni.. Im just going with the flow. Malas dah nak berharap tinggi2. And jangan salahkan saya kalau saya layan awak lain. Awak sendiri yg hilangkan kepercayaan saya tu.. I wish you can find it back sbb saya sayang awak. Saya sayang hubungan kita ni. Tapi tu lahh... Mungkin makan masa idk..
Im sorry...
